XXVIII -- voice;

[breakmychest]

And just like that, no more Dru. Can't say I'll miss her, exactly, but I'd have liked it if she could've graduated. I mean, we had fun, back in the bad old days. Not saying I'd go back to being an evil killer. There's the soul-crushing guilt keeping me from that, and besides, I like being a hero. I'm way better at it than I ever was at being the Big Bad.

[He's quiet for a moment.]

Still, before she turned me, I was a bloody pathetic poofter. People were calling me "William the Bloody" started before I died, you know, and it wasn't because of anything violent. It was because my poetry was so bloody awful.

[Why did he say that? Spike doesn't tell anyone that. He had more to say, but he just shuts off the journal before he can. He's afraid of what might come out.]

Comments

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[darknessb4me]

You said you were a killer. It's come up before, but I haven't really had reason to bring it up.

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[bigbad]

Oh, yeah. Change of heart's pretty bloody accurate there, then.

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[darknessb4me]

Hmm.

I feel like we've talked about this, actually. Something about a girl.

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[bigbad]

That is why I did it.

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[darknessb4me]

And how did you treat those who called you a sentimental fool for it?

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[bigbad]

Depends on who was saying it.

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[darknessb4me]

The ones whose opinions you couldn't simply dismiss, then.

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[bigbad]

...there are precious few of those, and they generally approved.

Anyway, it's not like they'd be wrong. Right girl... I'd do anything.