She's just been twisted up and manipulated, had her body do things she wouldn't have willingly chosen to have it do on its own. At least not in that way.
[She hasn't ever talked to Spike that much about what happened to her before, but that doesn't keep Fred from remembering it now]
And now it's not just that she can't stop thinking about it, or trying to line up all the pieces to see just how they add up to her again. She's probably thinking about you too. How knowing is going to make you feel. What you'll do and say.
I imagine she isn't upset because you didn't live up to her expectations, Spike.
But because you did.
I'm willing to bet you reacted exactly how she thought you would. How you might even have a right to. But that didn't keep her from hoping for something different.
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[Spike]
Date: 2011-05-31 04:36 am (UTC)[She hasn't ever talked to Spike that much about what happened to her before, but that doesn't keep Fred from remembering it now]
And now it's not just that she can't stop thinking about it, or trying to line up all the pieces to see just how they add up to her again. She's probably thinking about you too. How knowing is going to make you feel. What you'll do and say.
I imagine she isn't upset because you didn't live up to her expectations, Spike.
But because you did.
I'm willing to bet you reacted exactly how she thought you would. How you might even have a right to. But that didn't keep her from hoping for something different.