XXVIII -- voice;

[breakmychest]

And just like that, no more Dru. Can't say I'll miss her, exactly, but I'd have liked it if she could've graduated. I mean, we had fun, back in the bad old days. Not saying I'd go back to being an evil killer. There's the soul-crushing guilt keeping me from that, and besides, I like being a hero. I'm way better at it than I ever was at being the Big Bad.

[He's quiet for a moment.]

Still, before she turned me, I was a bloody pathetic poofter. People were calling me "William the Bloody" started before I died, you know, and it wasn't because of anything violent. It was because my poetry was so bloody awful.

[Why did he say that? Spike doesn't tell anyone that. He had more to say, but he just shuts off the journal before he can. He's afraid of what might come out.]

Comments

[82prctmoremanly.livejournal.com]

Wait, Dru like Drusilla? That's the vampire that was here? Dude. Isn't she, like, psycho? And your ex-girlfriend? You could have told me! [Don't you love well-read Watcher Andrew?]

[bigbad]

[So long as that's what he's focusing on and not the bloody awful poetry bit.]

Well, now she's gone. So it doesn't matter.

[82prctmoremanly.livejournal.com]

[For now.]

Well, it would have been nice to know!

So you wrote poetry? What was it about? Was it love poetry?

[bigbad]

...it was over a lifetime ago, I don't remember. [Liiiiies.]

[82prctmoremanly.livejournal.com]

What, really? How do you not remember? You remember, like, everything else, right? I think you're having selective memory or something.

[bigbad]

Yes, shocking that I can't remember a few lousy rhymes scribbled down in the bloody nineteenth century and then torn up and lost somewhere in the streets of London.

[82prctmoremanly.livejournal.com]

I don't get it, why was it so bad? Did you think it was bad, or were the critics just extra harsh?

[bigbad]

[Spike could probably point out that people can be cruel when someone's a bit of a nerd and kind of socially awkward. He's pretty sure Andrew would get it. But... he really, really doesn't want to bond over that with Andrew. So instead:]

Andrew? You like having all your limbs attached, right?

I've had a HORRIBLE lag for tags this week.

[82prctmoremanly.livejournal.com]

What did I say?! I'm just... curious.

Ugh, so lame.

[bigbad]

And I don't want to talk about it.

[82prctmoremanly.livejournal.com]

Fine. What do you want to talk about?

[bigbad]

[Anything but this. Seriously.]

How're you adjusting to the Barge?

[82prctmoremanly.livejournal.com]

[Andrew's just glad Spike wants to talk to him at all. His voice obviously picks up.]

Pretty good! Lots of people are pretty nice. I mean, like, even some of the inmates. They're pretty cool.

Oh! And, dude! There are comic book characters here! Like, people who are fiction where we're from! How sweet is that?

[bigbad]

[Never, ever, ever showing you the Buffy DVDs. Never.]

Met Dick, then, did you?

[82prctmoremanly.livejournal.com]

Dick? Uh... [Well, first thing that comes to mind is...] ...is Dick Grayson here?

[bigbad]

[...oh, he's talking about some other comic book character. WHOOPS.]

Well, yeah. Who were you talking about?

[82prctmoremanly.livejournal.com]

[Okay, Andrew. Keep your uber nerdy excitement contained. You already know Spike doesn't want to hear about it and will tell you thusly if you freak out. It may be a little obvious that Andrew has to take a few breaths to keep from practically seizing.]

Uhm, well, there's Superboy! I talked to him, that was pretty cool. And, uh, Eddie Brock! I think. But he's... different than the Venom I read in comic books. But I'm pretty sure he's still Venom. Because... well, he was pretty scary.

[bigbad]

[...yeah, you lost Spike. He doesn't really know either of those characters or people. And for some reason, he and Superboy have never really crossed paths.]

Is that different from Superman?

[82prctmoremanly.livejournal.com]

Uh, duh, dude. You've been around for, like, a hundred-something years. Did you seriously not have time to get cultured?

[bigbad]

I don't think Superanyone counts as culture.

[82prctmoremanly.livejournal.com]

What? Of course they do! Or at least... pop culture. [Or... nerd culture, but Andrew isn't going to say that out loud.]

[bigbad]

[It's cool, Andrew, Spike'll say it for you.]

Nerd culture, you mean.